My dad casually asks me who are your best friends... how many of your friends like you..
Always my answer is none... but i dont know the reason...

I do have some memorable moments with my friends...
but none of them whom i feel to be my best friends ,doesnt feel the same for me.
Why?? ... i don't know the reason....
One person whom i believed to be my best friend, I like that person very much, has some personal feelings where i was not supposed to interfere... so when i stopped interfering into the personal things.. which ended in a big gap....
The other whom i believed to be my best friend, whom i loved a lot but the same is not true from the other side. The person thinks i have over expected or over liked the person.
and many more ......

I like everything the friendship, the enjoyment involved in that and much more which i couldn't explain...

But the question which my dad asked is unanswered yet.
I know some reasons but those doesnt satisfy the question to its fullest...

I do what i wish.. So when i speak they think i am trying to dominate them...
Who ever the person may be.. i like to straight forward in speaking to them...
if i think what i am speaking is right.. i stick to it..
My company is boring... this i cant help because even if i try not to be boring they look to you as PJ's...
People misunderstand me for what i speak.. and i cant understand the second meaning of what i spoke until they have told me what they have understood.
Then only i realize that what i spoke can be understood in other way which has just the opposite to what i thought..[:O] ...

Some of my friends who hated me because of my straightforwardness... later said that they realized it...hope to see the same from others... but it is only possible to those who take it positively..

If the people whom i loved think what i have done is not wrong.. and if i really have done something wrong.. i really feel sorry..

I still love the people i loved and i keep loving but its not the case on the other side..

So.. i dont know where this trauma would lead to and where it ends...
Hope to have a better ending.... when i go into the future i hope there are somebody who would remember me....[:)]